some of my favorite recent memories

Okay, So I know that these first three pictures are obviously not recent. But earlier this week my mom and I went through old photo albums (I suggest doing this :) and we had so much together.

prayer

this isn't enough...i need change

Lord I need you to change in me, move in me

make me a clean pure heart

blossoms

I knew there were going to be days like this...

Laugher always breaks the silence

restores the uneasiness in my soul

I pretend tears are rain drops

watering my dried up feelings

of frustration,sweet bitterness, and misunderstanding

the glances across the room are empty

meaningless

lull

always there is more laughter

it covers up

covers up the tears that are....

spinning spinning spinning

and suddenly they are lost

but I don't fear

It all changes when the new sun rises

and flowers blossom.

Because my sister wants more pictures...

As my little sister was looking at my blog, she seemed very uninterested. She told me I needed more pictures.... I agreed.

This picture is of us in San Francisco last summer.. I love her face expression and how the camera caught the "Jesus Christ Loves You" sign in the background.

more pictures to come...thanks to my little.

happiest moments

I am happiest most when.....

surrounded by my friends, they make me want to be a better me

learning from my mother... if I could one day be only half of the woman she is

reading a book

at church

writing

letting my heart get inspired by magical melodies and thought provoking lyrics

giving my imagination the permission to be unleashed

at a park

watching a sunset

surrounded by flowers

singing (ha)

spending time with my sisters

painting

shooting hoops

dancing

getting lost in the twinkles of the stars

taking walks

caught in the beauty of silence

drinking coffee

feeling rain drops on my skin

puppies lick my face

my dad plays his acoustic guitar

God speaks to my heart

I am flying.... aka swinging on a swing

summer

My moments with God are growing.

I pay more attention.

Learning to balance.... and take risks

My heart is unruffled and fulfilled

Having fun and letting my goofy side be expressed

decided. realized. ready

At the end of the day.

The moments where I lay in bed before I fall asleep

I want these moments to be full of peace, hope, thankfulness and prayer.

I want look back on the day and know that I loved well

tried my best

took risks

made a difference

stayed focused

laughed

showed God's love

and in the end know... that I was myself, just me.

Because lately these last few moments before I fall asleep have been filled with...

pointless worries

fears of failing

thoughts of not being good enough

feeling hopeless in this world

selfish dreams

finding ways to impress others

and in the end... I felt empty, unsatisfied, not me.

Soooooooo, I have decided, realized and I am ready.

Decided to be me, just me

Realized it takes more effort to be someone else, rather than just you.

Ready to be bold, ready to love, take risks, make a difference.....

June is already full of excitement, happiness and new adventures.