Where I come to find....

I have struggled with finding where my worth and happiness come from

I have looked in all the wrong places...

"Lord, I am begging you to hold on tight

right now as I pour my heart out in hope for my future

In hope you wont let go

Im giving you my life

and bearing it all for you"

(side prayer, before I begin to let it all come out)

I am broken

I struggle with finding my innocence

probably due to my past of...

pain, a selfish, unhealthy kind of love, and the tight grip evil had on me

I was numb to life, to God's love, his very presence was absent

I was consumed by a worldly sin that was out of my hands

out of my control

(Have you ever been in a situation that is 100%

out of your control that you cannot explain

and are to afraid to change?)

When everything in my world is

crashing down, spinning, and paused as the world around continues on

these are the moments when He draws me near, takes my hand and never lets go

never lets go

he never let go

I get taken back to these moments...

Like I go through seasons in my life where I forget, where I don't believe.

Like it was all a dream

(and I wish it all was)

And then I open eyes to see God's face staring back at me

and wrapped in His arms

man he holds on tight.

more to come... just had to get this off my heavy heart

My hope is in God for this one..

Let your Hope be His Hope